the wait is painful and uncertain...i miss you

Went to church with my love today...after my declaration: i thought we have brought our relationship to the next level..but it seems abit awkward today...he is not his usual self..perhaps he is still not certain abt his feelings too....

I feel puzzled and insecure today....and i miss him so much though we just parted this evening...I miss his voice and his presence....

GOD pls let my insecure soul find peace and love through you tonight.

Pls guide me on wat should i know

my love

These past 3 weeks have been chaotic...i have experienced alot of emotional upheavel...I can be estatic one day and moody and restless the next day. All these emotional breakdowns happened after I met this guy. We went out on a couple of dates and i do enjoy certain parts of his company..but through this guy and our long conversations that i realised my true love.... he is the exact opposite of wat i really want...though we may have similar interests but there are alot of conflict of ideas and how we expect our future to be like.

I was at a crossroad. I am not sure shld i compromise and see how far we can go from here or should i call it a day and just be frens. I do feel apologetic toward this guy. He gave mi alot of attention and i do feel pampered for the 1st time in my life...I feel protected and i can act like a little princess infront of him cos i know he will take care of the rest. BUT deep down in my heart I start to think and even miss the other man of my life ( an old fren) . I feel bad to deceive myself abt my feelings towards this old fren of mine. I need to break out of my silence and face my true love. So before i can get myself a peaceful night of sleep, I must clarify my feelings and thoughts with this old fren of mine.

I declare my love for him last fri 11 jul 2008. I thought he may get a shock but he had expected mi to...and I think we agree tt we had an issue to take care is our religion and ideology. We will see how we can develop from there...i didnt get a definite ans from him yet but i am willing to wait and give it a try

P.S. I love you

No money!

Sad to say i will be having a 2 months break from work as my stall will be having a renovation. Haiz ...LOSS of income for 2 months...finally i have the time to travel but no money....

Hopefully i can land myself with an intern job at samsung for 2 mths...haha..it will be a dream come true and yes maybe get to know korean guys...haha...pray for me.

Surgeon bong dal hee! Good korean drama.

I chanced upon this korean drama series abt the life of a young doctor bong dal hee( meaning "plastic bag" in korean ). The whole drama is abt the life in hospital and lots of bloody operation scene.quite realistic and i get to learn medical terms and the medicine used. I love the lead actor "lee bum soo" ....he is a veteran actor and he is so " MAN".... haha starting to like korean guys.

To live is to love,
To love is to forgive,
To forgive is to forget,
To forget is to love again!

Wedding bells ringing!

Walking down the aisle--- wow what a wonderful thing that can happen to anyone.

I got 3 weddings in NOV and DEC = more hong baos will be given out

I just met up with my uni frens at wheelock place this evening and one of them is getting married. Out of the 4 gals, one is already married last DEC and one is planning to get married this coming DEC. Haha...so left 2 of us on the spinsters' table. We were thinking thta hopefully one of us will get married next DEC and the last one will get married in 2009 DEC. haha...

they said it is possible cos the fastest record that one couple has set is to get into a relationship and get married in 4 months time. I hope i can break the record..haha

They are keeping their fingers crossed for me to get married in next year DEC and hope that i can break the record and get married in 3 months....haha..i dun mind marriage in short notice if i really meet the right man.

Pray for me. Actually i am 100% ready for a marriage life..haha

Bachelor of Science (Hons) in Biomedical Sciences (Awarded by University of Bradford, UK)

Hmm...I have been so busy lately that I miss my lazy weekends when i can take a stroll at botanical gdns and sip my coffee at a relaxed pace....

I need to take a breather and recharge

I am looking at some interesting courses but i think i not sure whether i am ready for the 3 yr commitment yet ...the price tag of the course that I like is $34,500. Haiz....i need to rob the bank.

Well it is a course that can fulfil my dreams in working at a local hospital. Of course i am not smart enough to be a doctor ( my childhood's dream) but at least this course will provide a platform for mi to work at the hospital as a clinical trial coordinator or executive...haha thinking of life after being "kopisoh"

haiz, think i will have more courage to take up the course if I am married cos I know at least I have my family to fall back on...