Went to church with my love today...after my declaration: i thought we have brought our relationship to the next level..but it seems abit awkward today...he is not his usual self..perhaps he is still not certain abt his feelings too....
I feel puzzled and insecure today....and i miss him so much though we just parted this evening...I miss his voice and his presence....
GOD pls let my insecure soul find peace and love through you tonight.
Pls guide me on wat should i know
2008年7月14日 星期一
my love
These past 3 weeks have been chaotic...i have experienced alot of emotional upheavel...I can be estatic one day and moody and restless the next day. All these emotional breakdowns happened after I met this guy. We went out on a couple of dates and i do enjoy certain parts of his company..but through this guy and our long conversations that i realised my true love.... he is the exact opposite of wat i really want...though we may have similar interests but there are alot of conflict of ideas and how we expect our future to be like.
I was at a crossroad. I am not sure shld i compromise and see how far we can go from here or should i call it a day and just be frens. I do feel apologetic toward this guy. He gave mi alot of attention and i do feel pampered for the 1st time in my life...I feel protected and i can act like a little princess infront of him cos i know he will take care of the rest. BUT deep down in my heart I start to think and even miss the other man of my life ( an old fren) . I feel bad to deceive myself abt my feelings towards this old fren of mine. I need to break out of my silence and face my true love. So before i can get myself a peaceful night of sleep, I must clarify my feelings and thoughts with this old fren of mine.
I declare my love for him last fri 11 jul 2008. I thought he may get a shock but he had expected mi to...and I think we agree tt we had an issue to take care is our religion and ideology. We will see how we can develop from there...i didnt get a definite ans from him yet but i am willing to wait and give it a try
P.S. I love you
I was at a crossroad. I am not sure shld i compromise and see how far we can go from here or should i call it a day and just be frens. I do feel apologetic toward this guy. He gave mi alot of attention and i do feel pampered for the 1st time in my life...I feel protected and i can act like a little princess infront of him cos i know he will take care of the rest. BUT deep down in my heart I start to think and even miss the other man of my life ( an old fren) . I feel bad to deceive myself abt my feelings towards this old fren of mine. I need to break out of my silence and face my true love. So before i can get myself a peaceful night of sleep, I must clarify my feelings and thoughts with this old fren of mine.
I declare my love for him last fri 11 jul 2008. I thought he may get a shock but he had expected mi to...and I think we agree tt we had an issue to take care is our religion and ideology. We will see how we can develop from there...i didnt get a definite ans from him yet but i am willing to wait and give it a try
P.S. I love you
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